Gifts....

Dear Lil' Ones,

Thanks to Allah all the praises and prayers send to Allah..Mommy got an offer of enhancement my career.
A step that I always dreamt of and a milestone that I put when started working here ..
at least 2 years working here and a development of myself..
Somehow Mommy believe there's is some sort of rezeki given while you're inside me..

Yup everyone always said when there's a child, it's come along with rezeki given by Allah
and Mommy believe this all have been fated and anything happen has it own reason
Hopefully any bariers, burden may follows Mommy can face it because having you inside me..

Loves,
Mommy - April 7th 2010

50 reasons to be glad I am pregnant...

50 reasons to be glad you're pregnant
Written for BabyCenter Malaysia

link to the page

We all have moments when we think, 'Never again!' during pregnancy: perhaps morning sickness is making you miserable or you're 10 days overdue with not even a hint of a contraction. To remind you that being pregnant can be fun, we've rounded up some of the nice things about being an expectant mum.

and Mommy highlighted what I felt now and this will be updated time to time..

And why not share the things that have made pregnancy wonderful for you - just scroll down to the parents' tips box, below.

1 Relishing the early weeks when only you and your husband knew your special secret.
- first i just kept the secret of missed period with myself only.. afraid of Mr.sayang hoping too much

2 Knowing you've got nine whole months to plan, dream and fantasise.

-absolutely and I hope and send my prayer to Allah I'll going through 9 months with selamat and sihat.. to both Mommy and little one

3 Choosing maternity clothes - they've never been more practical or more sexy.

4 Now you've got the perfect excuse to pamper yourself - spending hours in a scented bath, enjoying a massage or rubbing soothing lotions into your growing bump.

5 Maternity leave when you will have two whole months (more if you work for a progressive, forward-thinking company) to enjoy your baby.

6 You can join a antenatal class and find a whole new bunch of friends (and don't forget our BabyCenter birth clubs: another great way to meet people due at the same time as you).

7 For once in your life you need to get heavier - pregnancy is Nature's way of making you feel good about putting on weight.

- there's some excuse i can kept my fat without regret ..considering got you inside me

8 If this is your first baby, enjoy the next nine months sleeping late at weekends: you won't get many chances later on.

- and put readiness when how can i coping the time the little one cried..jd anak yg baik ya

9 At last you've got the bosom you've always wanted, which means you also have...

10...a great excuse to buy lots of pretty new bras.

-need as Mommy felt no so comfy with existing ones

11 Finally, you can ask people to get off their seats for you in the LRT, train or bus.

12 At last you'll have something more than pot plants and cats to care for and nurture!

13 Suddenly you'll find you're getting lots of extra attention from parents, aunts and uncles, not to mention your husband.

- Yup, and mightbe later after announcing to everybody.. but being blessed got Mr.Sayang always patience..love

14 You may find you develop a closer relationship with sisters, cousins or friends who are parents themselves. Congratulations, you've just won free admission to the parents' club!

-BTW , we're getting closer sharing the joys and experiences... Mommy, Acha, Nazra , Nadea we're are all expecting and share the stories together .. and no forget to mention Umi, Pa'a, Kak Lizas(got 3 frens name Liza), Kak Roy, Rina, Nana and Sayang's collegues and officemate..thanks y'all

15 Telling your mum, dad, sister, brother, aunt, dog and seventh auntie twice removed, the good news and watching their faces light up.

- have seen their faces and their responds and happily share the news..

16 New talents! Whether it's knitting bootees or assembling a flat-pack cot, you'll suddenly find yourself trying out all sorts of new skills.

17 Suddenly you'll feel a new appreciation for your own mother and all she went through having you.

-and how she was sooooooo understanding to make sure me and lil one being in good health and sacrifice eventhough we couldn't meet up so frequent for this first trimester.with an excuse for me to take care of myself first..Thanks mak.. if someone iut there understand and can be a good mother like you..Loved You So

18 Decorating the nursery: one of the most exciting things you'll ever do.

19 Feeling those first fluttering kicks and thinking, 'Is that what I think it is? Or is it just wind?'

20 Feeling OK for sending your husband out for roti canai followed by double-choc chip ice cream and cendol.

21 Your parents digging out your old cot or pram, which they've kept safely all this time 'just in case'.

22 Going for healthy walks with your husband and getting fresh air in your lungs because it's good for you and good for your baby.

23 Enjoying the extra-vivid dreams you get in late pregnancy - and laughing about them with your friends.

24 Feeling a little pair of heels prodding under your diaphragm and knowing you'll soon be meeting the little person they belong to!

25 Choosing baby clothes and planning what you're going to buy.

26 Writing a pregnancy diary for your baby to read in the future.

-I'm blogging here eventhough knowing never told anyone yet about this blog..

27 Getting someone to take photos of you smiling over your enormous bump so that, one day, you can look back and be amazed you were ever that size.

28 Finding out how many people there are out there ready to care for you: grandma, grandpa, mum and dad, great grandaunt Bibi who used to scold you for playing masak-masak with her good china, doctors, nurses, breastfeeding counsellors...

- Mother In Law scolded me when i cook breakfast... heheh

29 Lying in bed with your husband's arms around you and your bump, knowing that love has created a new life.
-How lucky I am having you Mr. Sayang next to me.. and proudly said insyallah our little one will proud having you as his/her abah

30 Enjoying indulgences, such as evenings out, weekends away and anything else you might not be able to do so easily once the baby arrives.

31 Knowing that from now on, whatever happens, you'll never be bored again.

-We'll be experienced together and make sure you're born in most welcomed

32 Making new friends whenever you go shopping - everyone has a pregnancy story to share.

33 You can spend whole evenings debating baby names... (don't forget to try our BabyCenter baby namer if you get stuck!)

34 Imagining what he or she will look like. Your sweet little ears, of course, and his sexy eyes!

-Hope your nose will look like Mr. Sayang.or dimple like mine.. the rest hoping you always being healthy

35 Dreaming about, "My daughter the prime minister/pop star/brain surgeon."

36 Looking at your growing bump in the mirror and realising there's a person in there!

-I'm started done this number..Heh :)

37 Making out a squirmy outline on the ultrasound monitor. Asking for the pic to take home and pinning it up next to your work station, or just keeping it in your bag to sneak looks at.

38 The expression on your husband's face as he sees the test strip turn blue, looks at your growing bump or feels the baby kicking.
-Still remembered the expression Mr.Sayang when I showed the UPT

39 Buying that first little cuddly toy for your baby, not somebody else's.

40 Making that phone call to your husband to tell him that - we're off! - labour has started.

41 Trying out all those exercises you learned at antenatal class and finding out that they actually work!

42 Being held and supported throughout a contraction by your husband or labour companion and knowing that you can trust them totally.

43 Finding out, as the contractions get tough, that your repertoire of swear words (in several languages!) is far more extensive than you ever realised!

44 Making an informed choice about pain relief and finding that it's right for you at that stage in labour.

45 That huge rush of pleasure and relief when, suddenly, all the pain and effort stops.

46 Looking into your newborn's eyes and falling utterly in love.

47 Hearing your husband tell his colleagues, the cleaning lady, delivery man and anyone else he can find because his joy and pride are overwhelming.
-Remembering when you told me how happy you are when you tell your officemate over 9 mths you'll be Abah..

48 Celebrating! Whatever the time of day or night.
- Mulanya nk makan kat warung Cik Mat at last Mr. Sayang brought me having huge dinner at PizzaHut

49 Making all those phone calls to announce the arrival. Telling everyone the news and hearing the excitement in their voices.

50 Waking up to see your baby sleeping next to you and thinking, 'Wow! This is real. I'm a mum!'

-Soon insyaallah dengan izin Allah.. harapannya semau diberkati.. amin .. dengan sihat dan selamat utk semua nya

6/04/2010 - written at 4.50pm

Tired weekend

Last weekend me, Mr. Sayang and his family went to Taiping for his cousin wedding .. Kalau ikutkan hati tak mau pergi.. pnat and
so sudden i feel bad backpain. Walaupun tak ada rasa mual, pening2 kepala (Thanks God) tp sgt2 la sakit belakang.. The long route and tired and actually it's because of half of my heart don't want to go
Feel not have to socialize .. Mgkin sebab hormone yg baru dirembeskan ..Mgkin

Tapi for the sake of family and for the name of respect I have to..
Nasib pergi pun tak lama Sabtu pun da balik.. tp tiba2 rest time during weekend was adjourned tibe2 got many things to do
visiting her no1, visiting her no 2 and a plan to visits some more....
I couldnt help myself.. please do put some pity on me.. bukan nk mengada2 and bkan lah want to make it big .. but someone should understand...
There are got other time to do a Lawatan Sambil Belajar but when myself couldnt take it anymore then please do think about what inside me...
Mak always said do think about yourself first and hard to please people who couldnt understand... kalau la semua org mcm mak

At last have to confess to Mr.Sayang.. I couldnt take it anymore my back pain was sooo extremly hurt.. so bad..
and thanks God he stand up for me..
Then around 3 pm we arrived home (after a drama and might be someone sulk.. tapi harus di lakukan)
Take a nap to 6pm... still the backpain didnt less.. Mommy harus bertahan kerana ini yg kami mahu utk kamu...
Then a sore breast.. wah rasa mau malatup..hehheeh..
When reading the info from Babycenter this symptomps might happen during week 5 because of fetuse development and hormone...

erm but lucky me when other got vomiting, headache and etc but so far I only felt this only.. Hope Mommy will be okay and successfully going through months until you'll be deliver
with good health ..Amin.. Kuat kan Mommy

Telling The One That I Loved I was a Pregger

Before, we have decided that in the name and act of respectful to our parent anything good news , the one we should tells first is both mak, ayah and abah n then comes to siblings and other friends.

After it was confirmed that I'm expecting a little one inside me I asked Mr. Sayang I have to meet mak (otherwise it's taking too long to hold the news and I dont like to tell them in the phone)

Once I reached home at Bentong they never asked why I went home so sudden in the middle of the weekdays..heheh.. After Maghrib and all of us sat for our dinner and I gave a box to mak and said "Mak, only this we could give to both of you" . while ayah continue his chit chatting with Mr. Sayang

Then when she unwrapped the plastic and open the box... she still clueless .. then she read the letter on the mug - Grandpa - Grandma..




She was shocking but look happily is taht you are expecting .. and my father stop his chit chatting smiled and congratulate us and both said we double up the bonus .. insyaallah with Allah's willing will got two grandson. From inside me and acha (my sister)... Thanks Allah

And lucky me, circulated with lovely friends taht share the joys together.. thanks u guys..

And Mommy B hope she always be the good daughter,wife, mommy for little one and good friends..

When The Two Lines Tells Everything...

Chronology of the confusion for the usual self is started at 19th Mar when mak come over to my house.. I took an EL not because of I am sick but because mak came to our house for the first time.
I don't know why I spent long hours with sleep.. sgt letih letih gile..tido lagi n lagi.. then I found up something I felt nausea almost a week after mak came back to Bentong
I thought it was a sign that I've gotthe fever.. but whenever I've fever or cold I never experienced any nausea..
A plum tablet candy called Pikin became my have-to-"thing" in my hand bag and agaian after cooked for Sayang .. at 9pm I easily sleeep

Lastly I was asked by Mr. Sayang - B why you look so tired, too many works in the office?
Thank God because of his patience and I remembered a night I cried because of nothing
"Sayang tolong la b, b tak tau kenapa dgn b ni.."
When I'm feel that is not really me and this is not my usual self I am start googling ...
The thing that I'm googling "Signs of early pregnancy, what cause of nausea if im not sick etc"

Until the day the cycle should renew .. and the routine doesn't happen and the instinct and confusing came .. what if I, what if i'm not
I didnt tell any to Mr. Sayang and the cycle missed a day.. It was Sunday and I told him .. i told him not too hope too much but the cycle didnt renew as usual
He smiled back but then got mad by me... actually I dont want to put the hope too high

Then comes the Monday I ask one of experienced collegue at office and she said it might be but it's too early to assume but why not just bought the UPT
I am not tried until comes Tuesday - thought want to wait couples day but because of encouragement of other friends the first thing I do when reach home
is to do the self test.. then this what I've got





I ask Mr. Sayang to reconfirm what I saw .. that two lines.. then decide to go to clinic for reconfirmation with the DOC
and alhamdulilah it's inside me.. the two lines will change everything from the day I start to know I was expecting and a preggers.. wish I will be the good mommy for the little one soon